WOW!!

The reason for my WOW...

Because I totally forgot about this blog until my email sent me a reminder this morning. So lots of things have changed since I have last made a blog post. My kids are getting older, I am about to turn 28.
Things have been an up and down roller coaster.
I have been pursuing one of my favorite things.....Photography.
It has been a great journey!

I would like to share it with you guys, http://facebook.com/vb2photography

So what else has been going on...I went from a Stay at home mom and went back to work. I work with two great companies (in the event/wedding industry) and have met some great people.

Oh yeah, my 7th wedding anniversary is Friday!!! Kinda excited!


Well I hope to keep up with this blog a little more.

Feeling older and older

As some people know, I am a young mom of 3. And when I mean young, I am 24 years old. I am the mother to a six year old, 2 year old and one year old. My six year old is still considered my baby (I am guessing because she was my first born). In the last week, I have manage to hit a few milestones with her. She lost her first tooth about 7 days ago, lost her second tooth 3 days ago and lost her third tooth this afternoon. I have to say this has been too much for me to handle all in a week since she is still my "baby".

Also after losing her 3rd tooth, she received her first phone call and ultimately is now at her first sleepover! Okay yes, I remember having my sleepovers at this age, but it seems like I have been replaying the day she was born. I have also been thinking about, "where have the last 6 years gone?"

You would think, "Come on it happens in life, your kids grow up!"  And of course I would have to say I truly agree with you. But me as being 24, I look at others my age. Most are starting to get married, maybe have a child. And there is me  ("Hello, nice to meet you"). I have thought of the days where she would be socializing and going to parties and having sleepovers, but when it actually happens. *Insert Screeching Noises* It hits you like a freight train! 

Well my saga continues, until next time.

Been awhile and I need to vent

So I have been super busy lately, finally have my business up and running and it is doing well. My three kids have been a handful but love it!

But anyways my vent is about basically my time is money. And really people don't seem to get that about me. I have come to realize that I will no LONGER look out for others. I am tired of people complaing about poor pathetic them, when I could care less. How about me? Oh that's right we are suppose to stop and listen to you cry the blues and when I start to complain or vent, it is as I am speaking to myself.

I am done getting taken advantage of, since obviously it isn't working out in my favor. So FYI don't ask for oh can you do this, or that, because you know what I will say "UMM NOPE!"


Okay vent over!

Finding it difficult

I am finding it difficult to connect with anyone, mainly people around my age. My life is on the fast track compared to other 24 year olds I know. I am married and have 3 kids. Most of the people my age are just now getting engaged, getting married, or having their first child.

I feel like I am an outcast. There are a few people who I can talk to once in awhile but really I feel like I just can't connect. Is it because I have been burned by so many "So Called" friends before I can't make genuine connections with people anymore.

I told my husband the other day, really what is adult interaction. I really only talk to my husband.
I don't have that go to friend anymore, someone I can talk to about everything. Sometimes it feels like people act like they are your friends because they have to. I have to say being part of a mom group is hard sometimes. You don't know if they like you for you or because of a title you have had, and it truly makes it hard to be a happy person.

I guess I will find someone who will understand me and be able to feel comfortable with one day.

Untitled

Some days I am a truly proud person. I have no regrets or seem very unhappy. But then there are THOSE days were I feel like such a failure. Feeling like I have let down my family, my husband, my kids, etc.

I seem to try so hard and some days it feels like I just don't do enough to satisfy everyone. I have never considered of thinking of myself first. But when should I put myself first? Is it being selfish?

Am I truly failing? Obviously no, but why are THOSE days so hard to get through? I am a strong person, but THOSE days seem to get the best of me. I want to just sit in the corner and just sleep or cry, whatever feel good at the time.

I know the other moms out there know what I am going through. When is there time to just clear your mind (Naptime, bedtime?)

Okay my little rant is now done, For now :)

Don't Judge Me

Ever feel like you are always being judged negatively? First let me say, I'm a young mother (24 yrs old) to 3 wonderful children. Yes I did have my first child at 18, right after I graduated high school. Obviously things I had planned out after high school didn't go according to plan. But life always throws you curveballs.
Now I hate how people nowadays are viewing young mothers. TV shows like "Teen Mom"  and ""16 and Pregnant" have given young mothers a HUGE bad name! Of course you see the girls on there who do not want to give up their teen ways and want to party, go out with friends, etc. But really is that true for all young moms? In my case, NO! I didn't dream about going out, going to concerts; I had dreams of watching my child grow up, me being my child's role model and a extremely happy family. Which has been pretty accurate so far.
Also I was being judged for not being married to my child's father. Why? Why rush into marriage? Why cna't we make a family for us? I had my first daughter at 18 and I didn't get married to her father until I was almost 21. We wanted to make sure we could provide a stable and safe home for our child.
But of course there are people out there that do not agree with my method of life events. Really who's life is it? I know people will always have something to say but why can't we forget about the negatives and focus on the positives.
I am a young mother who does everything I can for my children. Why not make a show about that?

Been awhile

I have been busy lately and have but my personal blog on the back burner. But recently I started my own business. You should visit it and order something! :) Missy Prissy TuTus.

Also I have been getting the girls into boutique modeling helps make the summer go back. Jocelyn just finished her first booking on Heart and Soul Models.

My husband has been working countless hours at work and has not been home much :( Now that it is summer vacation and having all 3 kids home all day, I have been trying to find things to do so I can keep my sanity.
Also in this month, I have applied for a job. Curious to see if I get asked for an interview, I miss being a working mom but have enjoyed my life as a SAHM for the last 2 years. So we will see how that goes.

My babies are getting so big. Jocelyn will be turning 6 in about 2 months and anthony will be 1 in 2 1/2 months! Holy Cow.

Really my life in the last month hasn't been too exciting just been working on things here and there. Hopefully I can try to post more often. Since I have alot of bottled up feelings!