The reason for my WOW...
Because I totally forgot about this blog until my email sent me a reminder this morning. So lots of things have changed since I have last made a blog post. My kids are getting older, I am about to turn 28.
Things have been an up and down roller coaster.
I have been pursuing one of my favorite things.....Photography.
It has been a great journey!
I would like to share it with you guys, http://facebook.com/vb2photography
So what else has been going on...I went from a Stay at home mom and went back to work. I work with two great companies (in the event/wedding industry) and have met some great people.
Oh yeah, my 7th wedding anniversary is Friday!!! Kinda excited!
Well I hope to keep up with this blog a little more.
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Feeling older and older
As some people know, I am a young mom of 3. And when I mean young, I am 24 years old. I am the mother to a six year old, 2 year old and one year old. My six year old is still considered my baby (I am guessing because she was my first born). In the last week, I have manage to hit a few milestones with her. She lost her first tooth about 7 days ago, lost her second tooth 3 days ago and lost her third tooth this afternoon. I have to say this has been too much for me to handle all in a week since she is still my "baby".
Also after losing her 3rd tooth, she received her first phone call and ultimately is now at her first sleepover! Okay yes, I remember having my sleepovers at this age, but it seems like I have been replaying the day she was born. I have also been thinking about, "where have the last 6 years gone?"
You would think, "Come on it happens in life, your kids grow up!" And of course I would have to say I truly agree with you. But me as being 24, I look at others my age. Most are starting to get married, maybe have a child. And there is me ("Hello, nice to meet you"). I have thought of the days where she would be socializing and going to parties and having sleepovers, but when it actually happens. *Insert Screeching Noises* It hits you like a freight train!
Well my saga continues, until next time.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Been awhile and I need to vent
So I have been super busy lately, finally have my business up and running and it is doing well. My three kids have been a handful but love it!
But anyways my vent is about basically my time is money. And really people don't seem to get that about me. I have come to realize that I will no LONGER look out for others. I am tired of people complaing about poor pathetic them, when I could care less. How about me? Oh that's right we are suppose to stop and listen to you cry the blues and when I start to complain or vent, it is as I am speaking to myself.
I am done getting taken advantage of, since obviously it isn't working out in my favor. So FYI don't ask for oh can you do this, or that, because you know what I will say "UMM NOPE!"
Okay vent over!
But anyways my vent is about basically my time is money. And really people don't seem to get that about me. I have come to realize that I will no LONGER look out for others. I am tired of people complaing about poor pathetic them, when I could care less. How about me? Oh that's right we are suppose to stop and listen to you cry the blues and when I start to complain or vent, it is as I am speaking to myself.
I am done getting taken advantage of, since obviously it isn't working out in my favor. So FYI don't ask for oh can you do this, or that, because you know what I will say "UMM NOPE!"
Okay vent over!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Finding it difficult
I am finding it difficult to connect with anyone, mainly people around my age. My life is on the fast track compared to other 24 year olds I know. I am married and have 3 kids. Most of the people my age are just now getting engaged, getting married, or having their first child.
I feel like I am an outcast. There are a few people who I can talk to once in awhile but really I feel like I just can't connect. Is it because I have been burned by so many "So Called" friends before I can't make genuine connections with people anymore.
I told my husband the other day, really what is adult interaction. I really only talk to my husband.
I don't have that go to friend anymore, someone I can talk to about everything. Sometimes it feels like people act like they are your friends because they have to. I have to say being part of a mom group is hard sometimes. You don't know if they like you for you or because of a title you have had, and it truly makes it hard to be a happy person.
I guess I will find someone who will understand me and be able to feel comfortable with one day.
I feel like I am an outcast. There are a few people who I can talk to once in awhile but really I feel like I just can't connect. Is it because I have been burned by so many "So Called" friends before I can't make genuine connections with people anymore.
I told my husband the other day, really what is adult interaction. I really only talk to my husband.
I don't have that go to friend anymore, someone I can talk to about everything. Sometimes it feels like people act like they are your friends because they have to. I have to say being part of a mom group is hard sometimes. You don't know if they like you for you or because of a title you have had, and it truly makes it hard to be a happy person.
I guess I will find someone who will understand me and be able to feel comfortable with one day.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Untitled
Some days I am a truly proud person. I have no regrets or seem very unhappy. But then there are THOSE days were I feel like such a failure. Feeling like I have let down my family, my husband, my kids, etc.
I seem to try so hard and some days it feels like I just don't do enough to satisfy everyone. I have never considered of thinking of myself first. But when should I put myself first? Is it being selfish?
Am I truly failing? Obviously no, but why are THOSE days so hard to get through? I am a strong person, but THOSE days seem to get the best of me. I want to just sit in the corner and just sleep or cry, whatever feel good at the time.
I know the other moms out there know what I am going through. When is there time to just clear your mind (Naptime, bedtime?)
Okay my little rant is now done, For now :)
I seem to try so hard and some days it feels like I just don't do enough to satisfy everyone. I have never considered of thinking of myself first. But when should I put myself first? Is it being selfish?
Am I truly failing? Obviously no, but why are THOSE days so hard to get through? I am a strong person, but THOSE days seem to get the best of me. I want to just sit in the corner and just sleep or cry, whatever feel good at the time.
I know the other moms out there know what I am going through. When is there time to just clear your mind (Naptime, bedtime?)
Okay my little rant is now done, For now :)
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Don't Judge Me
Ever feel like you are always being judged negatively? First let me say, I'm a young mother (24 yrs old) to 3 wonderful children. Yes I did have my first child at 18, right after I graduated high school. Obviously things I had planned out after high school didn't go according to plan. But life always throws you curveballs.
Now I hate how people nowadays are viewing young mothers. TV shows like "Teen Mom" and ""16 and Pregnant" have given young mothers a HUGE bad name! Of course you see the girls on there who do not want to give up their teen ways and want to party, go out with friends, etc. But really is that true for all young moms? In my case, NO! I didn't dream about going out, going to concerts; I had dreams of watching my child grow up, me being my child's role model and a extremely happy family. Which has been pretty accurate so far.
Also I was being judged for not being married to my child's father. Why? Why rush into marriage? Why cna't we make a family for us? I had my first daughter at 18 and I didn't get married to her father until I was almost 21. We wanted to make sure we could provide a stable and safe home for our child.
But of course there are people out there that do not agree with my method of life events. Really who's life is it? I know people will always have something to say but why can't we forget about the negatives and focus on the positives.
I am a young mother who does everything I can for my children. Why not make a show about that?
Now I hate how people nowadays are viewing young mothers. TV shows like "Teen Mom" and ""16 and Pregnant" have given young mothers a HUGE bad name! Of course you see the girls on there who do not want to give up their teen ways and want to party, go out with friends, etc. But really is that true for all young moms? In my case, NO! I didn't dream about going out, going to concerts; I had dreams of watching my child grow up, me being my child's role model and a extremely happy family. Which has been pretty accurate so far.
Also I was being judged for not being married to my child's father. Why? Why rush into marriage? Why cna't we make a family for us? I had my first daughter at 18 and I didn't get married to her father until I was almost 21. We wanted to make sure we could provide a stable and safe home for our child.
But of course there are people out there that do not agree with my method of life events. Really who's life is it? I know people will always have something to say but why can't we forget about the negatives and focus on the positives.
I am a young mother who does everything I can for my children. Why not make a show about that?
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Been awhile
I have been busy lately and have but my personal blog on the back burner. But recently I started my own business. You should visit it and order something! :) Missy Prissy TuTus. Also I have been getting the girls into boutique modeling helps make the summer go back. Jocelyn just finished her first booking on Heart and Soul Models.
My husband has been working countless hours at work and has not been home much :( Now that it is summer vacation and having all 3 kids home all day, I have been trying to find things to do so I can keep my sanity.Also in this month, I have applied for a job. Curious to see if I get asked for an interview, I miss being a working mom but have enjoyed my life as a SAHM for the last 2 years. So we will see how that goes.
My babies are getting so big. Jocelyn will be turning 6 in about 2 months and anthony will be 1 in 2 1/2 months! Holy Cow.
Really my life in the last month hasn't been too exciting just been working on things here and there. Hopefully I can try to post more often. Since I have alot of bottled up feelings!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Teething Babies
Recently my children (my two youngest) have been teething and life the last couple days has been quite interesting. I am barely getting any sleep and just trying to comfort my babies. I know I am not the only mom out there who have teething babies, so I have put together just some common signs of teething and how to comfort our little ones.
*Note All Children experience things differently and this is general information*
When does teething start?
Teething usually begins around 6 months of age. But it is normal for teething to start at any time between 3 months and 12 months of age. By the time your child is about 3 years old, he or she will have all 20 primary teeth.
Symptoms of Teething:
• Fever The inflammation caused by tooth eruption may be accompanied by a mild fever, but running a temperature is not a classic teething symptom. Any fever of 101 degrees or more, say pediatricians, has nothing to do with teething - even if your child is cutting a tooth at the same time. Monitor and treat it as you would any other fever.
• Diarrhea The jury is still out on whether loose stools are a symptom of teething or just a byproduct of a fledgling immune system. If fever and/or vomiting accompanies the diarrhea, it's likely that a virus is to blame.
• Irritability When irritability goes along with swollen gums and drooling, and your baby's also rubbing his gums or biting, he may well be teething. The irritability could become more intense in the middle of the night, when distractions like parents, toys and meals are absent. But since it could also be the result of illness, keep an eye out for any other symptoms.
• Ear Pulling The pain that teething causes in the jaw can transfer to the ear canal, and a baby will often pull on his ears in hopes of alleviating it. But since ear pulling is also a telltale sign of an ear infection, it's important to get a take on how strong the pain is. Teething pain is dull in comparison to that of an ear infection, making a teething baby far more distractible than one with an ear infection. If you can’t distract your baby from daytime irritability and/or a fever accompanies the ear pulling, chances are your child has an ear infection.
Some ways to Comfort a teething baby:
• Give your baby a mild pain reliever that is labeled for his or her specific age. For example, acetaminophen (such as Tylenol) or ibuprofen (such as Advil) may help relieve your baby's discomfort.
• Use a clean finger (or cold teething ring) to gently rub your baby's gum for about 2 minutes at a time. Many babies find this soothing, although they may protest at first.
• Provide safe objects for your baby to chew on, such as teething rings
If you have any questions, please consult with your child's doctor
*Note All Children experience things differently and this is general information*
When does teething start?
Teething usually begins around 6 months of age. But it is normal for teething to start at any time between 3 months and 12 months of age. By the time your child is about 3 years old, he or she will have all 20 primary teeth.
Symptoms of Teething:
• Fever The inflammation caused by tooth eruption may be accompanied by a mild fever, but running a temperature is not a classic teething symptom. Any fever of 101 degrees or more, say pediatricians, has nothing to do with teething - even if your child is cutting a tooth at the same time. Monitor and treat it as you would any other fever.
• Diarrhea The jury is still out on whether loose stools are a symptom of teething or just a byproduct of a fledgling immune system. If fever and/or vomiting accompanies the diarrhea, it's likely that a virus is to blame.
• Irritability When irritability goes along with swollen gums and drooling, and your baby's also rubbing his gums or biting, he may well be teething. The irritability could become more intense in the middle of the night, when distractions like parents, toys and meals are absent. But since it could also be the result of illness, keep an eye out for any other symptoms.
• Ear Pulling The pain that teething causes in the jaw can transfer to the ear canal, and a baby will often pull on his ears in hopes of alleviating it. But since ear pulling is also a telltale sign of an ear infection, it's important to get a take on how strong the pain is. Teething pain is dull in comparison to that of an ear infection, making a teething baby far more distractible than one with an ear infection. If you can’t distract your baby from daytime irritability and/or a fever accompanies the ear pulling, chances are your child has an ear infection.
Some ways to Comfort a teething baby:
• Give your baby a mild pain reliever that is labeled for his or her specific age. For example, acetaminophen (such as Tylenol) or ibuprofen (such as Advil) may help relieve your baby's discomfort.
• Use a clean finger (or cold teething ring) to gently rub your baby's gum for about 2 minutes at a time. Many babies find this soothing, although they may protest at first.
• Provide safe objects for your baby to chew on, such as teething rings
If you have any questions, please consult with your child's doctor
Sunday, May 29, 2011
First Taste of Summer
Today is the first real taste of summer I've really had other the the extreme heat. Me and the family went to the beach with a couple of my friends. What a blast it was, even thou I got really bad sun burn on my back and it hurts like H.E.double hockey sticks right now!
The water was a bit on the colder side but once you were in it didn't seem to bother anyone too much. My daughter had a blast in the water. Which is great because the last time we were at the beach she cried once her toe (YES , her toe) got wet. My baby boy is a total outdoor lover and enjoyed his time outside. He just chilled out in the tent we propped up and even went into the water.
The greatest thing is my husband was able to be there with us, he barely gets the weekends off and this weekend he got to enjoy some much needed family fun time!!!! I'm all smiles even in my pain!
The water was a bit on the colder side but once you were in it didn't seem to bother anyone too much. My daughter had a blast in the water. Which is great because the last time we were at the beach she cried once her toe (YES , her toe) got wet. My baby boy is a total outdoor lover and enjoyed his time outside. He just chilled out in the tent we propped up and even went into the water.Thursday, May 26, 2011
Playing catch up 5.26
So I have been extremely busy lately. With 3 kids, a husband, checking on my mommy site, helping revamp a blog, cook, clean, etc. I just have been not so active with this blog.
Now lets talk about this weather. IT IS TOO DARN HUMID OUTSIDE!!! I feel like I am going to melt right when I walk out the door! and the crazy storms we have had lately (kinda scary). I don't know whatever happened to spring because it felt like we went from winter to summer and skipped spring!
So you ask what have I been up, whats going on in my life? Well I have been sitting back and watching people in my life. Seeing who are truly there for me and not just saying they are my friends. I have had a few people really surprise me and I feel grateful that they are in my circle. I can just vent with them and they totally get me. THANK GOODNESS!
How about my kids? Well it has been a crazy rollercoaster with my 3 kids. My youngest is teething and not taking it well. My middle is just being her normal independent self. And my oldest well she has had a rough week. But things are getting better! School will be over before we know it and my oldest and middle children will drive me up the wall! I can see it now.
Now lets talk about this weather. IT IS TOO DARN HUMID OUTSIDE!!! I feel like I am going to melt right when I walk out the door! and the crazy storms we have had lately (kinda scary). I don't know whatever happened to spring because it felt like we went from winter to summer and skipped spring!What is on mind? I am thinking about entering to working world again. Granted I love being a SAHM (stay at home mom). I am a working woman at heart.
I guess I am done rambling!! Have a good day!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Why is it hard
Why does it seem harder to trust people when you are an adult. I remember friends were so easy to come by. Now it seems utterly impossible to find friends these days.
I am trying to open up to people but it seems like they are being forced to be friendly to me in a way. I don't want friends like that, I want friends who like me for me, and understand me. I want someone I can turn to in a difficult time and just talk to and vent.
Is it asking much? I already know I am never going to lower my standards for my friends. They aren't really set that high to begin with, I need people I can trust. And right now there aren't many I can say I trust nowadays.
I am trying to open up to people but it seems like they are being forced to be friendly to me in a way. I don't want friends like that, I want friends who like me for me, and understand me. I want someone I can turn to in a difficult time and just talk to and vent.
Is it asking much? I already know I am never going to lower my standards for my friends. They aren't really set that high to begin with, I need people I can trust. And right now there aren't many I can say I trust nowadays.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
2 years ago
Alittle over two years ago, my husband and I welcomed our second daughter into the world. With her, I had a really difficult pregnancy. I was losing weight instead of gaining the first 6 months, and had morning sickness for about 8 months.
We weren't expecting her for another week but that morning at 6am, I had the urge to run to the bathroom and go pee. What pregnant women doesn't have to pee. Well it didn't feel normal like usual and I started to freak. My husband was getting dressed for work and was about to walk out the door and head off to work, and then I yelled "I think my water broke!". He told me to call my doctors office to see what they said. And sure enough they told me to go to Labor & Delivery.
When we got to the hospital, sure enough my water had broke, but wasn't feeling any contractions. I was given pitocin to speed up the contractions, and I didn't really feel anything. Around 11, Jocelyn left to go be with my parents. Once my husband got back from dropping our oldest off, I started feel the pain. I tried to hold off as much as possible.
Around 2pm I told the nurse I couldn't take the pain anymore. So it was time to get the epidural I was only 4cm along and was in so much pain. They came in to do my epidural, and it took at least 15 minutes, and the nurse forgot the pain medicine pump. I was sitting there with the epidural pretty much set up just was waiting on the medicine. By the time the nurse came back, I told her I was in ALOT of pain. She told me it was time to push! So in the 10 minutes from receieving my epidural, I dialated from 4cm to 10cm.
I started to push around 2:15...and several pushes later I was holding my 2nd baby girl! She was born at 2:26pm.
She is such a chacarter and we love her so very much.
We weren't expecting her for another week but that morning at 6am, I had the urge to run to the bathroom and go pee. What pregnant women doesn't have to pee. Well it didn't feel normal like usual and I started to freak. My husband was getting dressed for work and was about to walk out the door and head off to work, and then I yelled "I think my water broke!". He told me to call my doctors office to see what they said. And sure enough they told me to go to Labor & Delivery.
When we got to the hospital, sure enough my water had broke, but wasn't feeling any contractions. I was given pitocin to speed up the contractions, and I didn't really feel anything. Around 11, Jocelyn left to go be with my parents. Once my husband got back from dropping our oldest off, I started feel the pain. I tried to hold off as much as possible.
Around 2pm I told the nurse I couldn't take the pain anymore. So it was time to get the epidural I was only 4cm along and was in so much pain. They came in to do my epidural, and it took at least 15 minutes, and the nurse forgot the pain medicine pump. I was sitting there with the epidural pretty much set up just was waiting on the medicine. By the time the nurse came back, I told her I was in ALOT of pain. She told me it was time to push! So in the 10 minutes from receieving my epidural, I dialated from 4cm to 10cm.
I started to push around 2:15...and several pushes later I was holding my 2nd baby girl! She was born at 2:26pm.
She is such a chacarter and we love her so very much.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
5.11.11
I am finally feeling like I can live my life the way I want. I don't have to watch what I say or conform to a certain persons personality. I can finally be happy.
For years, people who were in my life (some not by choice) were extremely toxic and dragging those around them down into their miserable lives. They were making things uneasy for my husband and myself, and putting a wedge on our happiness.
I can't help that I am married to an amazing man, and you are left playing house with someone. I just can't help you get the things you want, I have my own life and family to look out for.
Well these passed few months, we have cut people out and I couldn't be happier. We don't have to listen to them say how they wish things were different and how they suck at life. Also trying to compare what me and my husband have to their own lives. How is that healthy?
To me there are two types of people in the world; Follwers and Leaders. I choose to be a leader of my own life, and not be stuck following people and being stuck in the dark. Some people choose that life, and that isn't for me. I choose to be the way I am, and really you can choose to accept me for me or just leave me alone. Its time to be blunt and weed out the fakers.
For years, people who were in my life (some not by choice) were extremely toxic and dragging those around them down into their miserable lives. They were making things uneasy for my husband and myself, and putting a wedge on our happiness.
I can't help that I am married to an amazing man, and you are left playing house with someone. I just can't help you get the things you want, I have my own life and family to look out for.
Well these passed few months, we have cut people out and I couldn't be happier. We don't have to listen to them say how they wish things were different and how they suck at life. Also trying to compare what me and my husband have to their own lives. How is that healthy?
To me there are two types of people in the world; Follwers and Leaders. I choose to be a leader of my own life, and not be stuck following people and being stuck in the dark. Some people choose that life, and that isn't for me. I choose to be the way I am, and really you can choose to accept me for me or just leave me alone. Its time to be blunt and weed out the fakers.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Milestones
So my children are driving me insane these days. They are hitting certain milestones which can be over and done with already!
My oldest has discovered the art of tattle telling on her little sister. Yes even if she touches something, Mommy she is touching this, she is doing that. It is driving me bonkers! In the car I hear "Mommy, she is taking off her shoes." Its utterly a huge annoyance
Now my middle child is going to be turning 2 in two days. "Terrible Two's" is such an understatement for her. She is throwing fits, refusing to listen, beating up my 5 yo. Basically driving me up the wall. I feel like she is turning 25 instead of 2. My oldest never went through the "terrible two's" so this is so NEW to me.
Between the two of them, I should be completely drain!
So right now I think I shall scream, it will make me feel better!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! okay good now!
My oldest has discovered the art of tattle telling on her little sister. Yes even if she touches something, Mommy she is touching this, she is doing that. It is driving me bonkers! In the car I hear "Mommy, she is taking off her shoes." Its utterly a huge annoyance
Now my middle child is going to be turning 2 in two days. "Terrible Two's" is such an understatement for her. She is throwing fits, refusing to listen, beating up my 5 yo. Basically driving me up the wall. I feel like she is turning 25 instead of 2. My oldest never went through the "terrible two's" so this is so NEW to me.
Between the two of them, I should be completely drain!
So right now I think I shall scream, it will make me feel better!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! okay good now!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Mother's Day
Jocelyn comes home from school with a ton of artwork for me to celebrate Mother's Day. She also had to put together a book about me. My daughter knows me so well! It was so cute, one of the questions was "Your mother's favorite food is.." and she says "Potatoes". Yum I love some potatoes. What really got me was "What does you mom do.." her answer "Taking care of the family." I'm glad that my work does not go unnoticed.
I wanted to wish all the moms I know, a VERY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
How did I get to where I am today thou? It all started in high school, I met this cute guy, and we fell deeply in love. Well after graduation a few months later guy and girl had their first daughter.
I traded my life of going out with friends for watching Dora the Explorer. I never had the real after high school life. While my friends were out partying at the clubs, I was at home partying with my daughter and fiance. While my friends were out getting drunk, I was at home cleaning sippy cups. But I've noticed that all that stuff Imissed out in, I would never want to do anyways.
A couple years later, me and my hubby decided we wanted to expand, and soon later we had our second child. Alot of my friends were graduating from college, I was graduating my oldest out of diapers. Also I was a working mom. Working 40 hours a week to help my family strive and grow.
And later at our surprise, I was carrying another lil one. And 9 months later, we welcomed the first boy to the bunch. Today I am a mom to a school age child, a toddler, and an infant. Can we say I have my hands full?!?
Now that may not seem like much to some, it means the world to me. Some are still trying to find themselves, I have found the man of my dreams and have the family I have wished for since I thought about having kids.
I love my life, and my family...so again HAPPY Mother's Day!
I wanted to wish all the moms I know, a VERY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
How did I get to where I am today thou? It all started in high school, I met this cute guy, and we fell deeply in love. Well after graduation a few months later guy and girl had their first daughter.
I traded my life of going out with friends for watching Dora the Explorer. I never had the real after high school life. While my friends were out partying at the clubs, I was at home partying with my daughter and fiance. While my friends were out getting drunk, I was at home cleaning sippy cups. But I've noticed that all that stuff Imissed out in, I would never want to do anyways.
A couple years later, me and my hubby decided we wanted to expand, and soon later we had our second child. Alot of my friends were graduating from college, I was graduating my oldest out of diapers. Also I was a working mom. Working 40 hours a week to help my family strive and grow.
And later at our surprise, I was carrying another lil one. And 9 months later, we welcomed the first boy to the bunch. Today I am a mom to a school age child, a toddler, and an infant. Can we say I have my hands full?!?
Now that may not seem like much to some, it means the world to me. Some are still trying to find themselves, I have found the man of my dreams and have the family I have wished for since I thought about having kids.
I love my life, and my family...so again HAPPY Mother's Day!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Time Flies
My babies seem to be growing up way to fast. Especially Kristina, she may be my middle child but I can't believe she will be turning 2 next week. Where did the last two years go?
She is so smart for her age, it scares me sometimes. She doesn't realize her birthday is next week but I have to say I am excited. Her birthday party is next weekend, and I know that will be super fun. We are surrounding ourselves with friends!
I think we are going with a Spongebob theme, but not too sure yet.
The next thing you know Anthony is going to be a year old!
Time Flies!!!
She is so smart for her age, it scares me sometimes. She doesn't realize her birthday is next week but I have to say I am excited. Her birthday party is next weekend, and I know that will be super fun. We are surrounding ourselves with friends!
I think we are going with a Spongebob theme, but not too sure yet.
The next thing you know Anthony is going to be a year old!
Time Flies!!!
Friday, April 29, 2011
What a day
So after a long day of my husband being at work (14+hrs) Sometimes I just feel like I'm a single mother. His job doesn't consider he has 3 young children at home and working him all hours of the night. People who have no real responsibilities get off early and can just do whatever they want.
I am tired! He misses bedtime, the girls won't stop asking when daddy will come home. It hurts me inside. When my husband went out of town for 2 days, my oldest asked me if daddy was ever coming back home. I mean what can you do.
I feel like the walls around me are crumbling and I'm getting caught by the rubble. But I stay strong for my family. I mask my emotions and lock them deep inside. I can't have my children see me as a mess., even though I just want to cry!
I am tired! He misses bedtime, the girls won't stop asking when daddy will come home. It hurts me inside. When my husband went out of town for 2 days, my oldest asked me if daddy was ever coming back home. I mean what can you do.
I feel like the walls around me are crumbling and I'm getting caught by the rubble. But I stay strong for my family. I mask my emotions and lock them deep inside. I can't have my children see me as a mess., even though I just want to cry!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Feeling Drained
I feel like I am doing too much in my life sometimes, and feels like the life is literally getting sucked out of me. Feels like you don't have anyone to turn to at times. Keeping things bottled up is just not a good thing for me, because once I hit my boiling point, WATCH OUT!
I'm trying to not get to that point but I feel more and more frustrated then anything.
And the best way for me to get over things is just to sit and cut off the world in a sense.
Granted I have better days then bad, but the bad days seem so harsh. I really do miss having that close friend to understand me, and knows how I truly feel.
But I have to say today was a good day, yesterday was a bad day but I have moved on, and trying to keep this smile on my face.
I'm trying to not get to that point but I feel more and more frustrated then anything.
And the best way for me to get over things is just to sit and cut off the world in a sense.
Granted I have better days then bad, but the bad days seem so harsh. I really do miss having that close friend to understand me, and knows how I truly feel.
But I have to say today was a good day, yesterday was a bad day but I have moved on, and trying to keep this smile on my face.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Spring Break
Is Spring Break almost over? I swear this has been the most tiring week! Jocelyn is even ready to go back to school.
In a week span, I've given the most time outs, pulling the girls off each other to stop fighting, saying the weird NO, heard tons more crying. And my girls are only 5 years old and almost 2 years old.
Now can I say I'm not looking forward to summer vacation! :)
My girls are physically draining, and then on top of that my son, has been cranky pants this week as well. I think he is cutting another tooth in, which means not great sleep for mommy. All I want to do is curl up in bed with my husband and sleep!
Monday can't come fast enough!
In a week span, I've given the most time outs, pulling the girls off each other to stop fighting, saying the weird NO, heard tons more crying. And my girls are only 5 years old and almost 2 years old.
Now can I say I'm not looking forward to summer vacation! :)
My girls are physically draining, and then on top of that my son, has been cranky pants this week as well. I think he is cutting another tooth in, which means not great sleep for mommy. All I want to do is curl up in bed with my husband and sleep!
Monday can't come fast enough!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
4.13.11-Playing catch up
So recently my husband has realized he can't keep giving certain people in his life, chances upon chances. Basically he has cut ties with his brother. All he does is lie to my husband, and he can't seem to keep his lies straight. My husband doesn't want to since it's his brother but he is done being hurt. I have also come across some amazing woman lately, and truly feel I'm starting to make friends who understand me. Because they are moms! YES! I feel like I can be myself and not have to hold back.which I have been missing for years people that I can truly relate to in different ways. Also my husband has left for a 2 day out of town work related job. I was extremely upset with the last minute notice his bosses gave him and myself, but what can you do. I feel like I may go insane without my man. And the kids are already missing him this morning. But hopefully this weekend, he wont have to work and we can spend it together. I think I've caught up on what is going on in my life as of right now!
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