Wednesday, November 23, 2011
But anyways my vent is about basically my time is money. And really people don't seem to get that about me. I have come to realize that I will no LONGER look out for others. I am tired of people complaing about poor pathetic them, when I could care less. How about me? Oh that's right we are suppose to stop and listen to you cry the blues and when I start to complain or vent, it is as I am speaking to myself.
I am done getting taken advantage of, since obviously it isn't working out in my favor. So FYI don't ask for oh can you do this, or that, because you know what I will say "UMM NOPE!"
Okay vent over!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I feel like I am an outcast. There are a few people who I can talk to once in awhile but really I feel like I just can't connect. Is it because I have been burned by so many "So Called" friends before I can't make genuine connections with people anymore.
I told my husband the other day, really what is adult interaction. I really only talk to my husband.
I don't have that go to friend anymore, someone I can talk to about everything. Sometimes it feels like people act like they are your friends because they have to. I have to say being part of a mom group is hard sometimes. You don't know if they like you for you or because of a title you have had, and it truly makes it hard to be a happy person.
I guess I will find someone who will understand me and be able to feel comfortable with one day.
Friday, August 5, 2011
I seem to try so hard and some days it feels like I just don't do enough to satisfy everyone. I have never considered of thinking of myself first. But when should I put myself first? Is it being selfish?
Am I truly failing? Obviously no, but why are THOSE days so hard to get through? I am a strong person, but THOSE days seem to get the best of me. I want to just sit in the corner and just sleep or cry, whatever feel good at the time.
I know the other moms out there know what I am going through. When is there time to just clear your mind (Naptime, bedtime?)
Okay my little rant is now done, For now :)
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Now I hate how people nowadays are viewing young mothers. TV shows like "Teen Mom" and ""16 and Pregnant" have given young mothers a HUGE bad name! Of course you see the girls on there who do not want to give up their teen ways and want to party, go out with friends, etc. But really is that true for all young moms? In my case, NO! I didn't dream about going out, going to concerts; I had dreams of watching my child grow up, me being my child's role model and a extremely happy family. Which has been pretty accurate so far.
Also I was being judged for not being married to my child's father. Why? Why rush into marriage? Why cna't we make a family for us? I had my first daughter at 18 and I didn't get married to her father until I was almost 21. We wanted to make sure we could provide a stable and safe home for our child.
But of course there are people out there that do not agree with my method of life events. Really who's life is it? I know people will always have something to say but why can't we forget about the negatives and focus on the positives.
I am a young mother who does everything I can for my children. Why not make a show about that?
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Also in this month, I have applied for a job. Curious to see if I get asked for an interview, I miss being a working mom but have enjoyed my life as a SAHM for the last 2 years. So we will see how that goes.
Really my life in the last month hasn't been too exciting just been working on things here and there. Hopefully I can try to post more often. Since I have alot of bottled up feelings!
Monday, June 6, 2011
*Note All Children experience things differently and this is general information*
When does teething start?
Teething usually begins around 6 months of age. But it is normal for teething to start at any time between 3 months and 12 months of age. By the time your child is about 3 years old, he or she will have all 20 primary teeth.
Symptoms of Teething:
• Fever The inflammation caused by tooth eruption may be accompanied by a mild fever, but running a temperature is not a classic teething symptom. Any fever of 101 degrees or more, say pediatricians, has nothing to do with teething - even if your child is cutting a tooth at the same time. Monitor and treat it as you would any other fever.
• Diarrhea The jury is still out on whether loose stools are a symptom of teething or just a byproduct of a fledgling immune system. If fever and/or vomiting accompanies the diarrhea, it's likely that a virus is to blame.
• Irritability When irritability goes along with swollen gums and drooling, and your baby's also rubbing his gums or biting, he may well be teething. The irritability could become more intense in the middle of the night, when distractions like parents, toys and meals are absent. But since it could also be the result of illness, keep an eye out for any other symptoms.
• Ear Pulling The pain that teething causes in the jaw can transfer to the ear canal, and a baby will often pull on his ears in hopes of alleviating it. But since ear pulling is also a telltale sign of an ear infection, it's important to get a take on how strong the pain is. Teething pain is dull in comparison to that of an ear infection, making a teething baby far more distractible than one with an ear infection. If you can’t distract your baby from daytime irritability and/or a fever accompanies the ear pulling, chances are your child has an ear infection.
Some ways to Comfort a teething baby:
• Give your baby a mild pain reliever that is labeled for his or her specific age. For example, acetaminophen (such as Tylenol) or ibuprofen (such as Advil) may help relieve your baby's discomfort.
• Use a clean finger (or cold teething ring) to gently rub your baby's gum for about 2 minutes at a time. Many babies find this soothing, although they may protest at first.
• Provide safe objects for your baby to chew on, such as teething rings
If you have any questions, please consult with your child's doctor
Sunday, May 29, 2011
The greatest thing is my husband was able to be there with us, he barely gets the weekends off and this weekend he got to enjoy some much needed family fun time!!!! I'm all smiles even in my pain!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Now lets talk about this weather. IT IS TOO DARN HUMID OUTSIDE!!! I feel like I am going to melt right when I walk out the door! and the crazy storms we have had lately (kinda scary). I don't know whatever happened to spring because it felt like we went from winter to summer and skipped spring!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
I am trying to open up to people but it seems like they are being forced to be friendly to me in a way. I don't want friends like that, I want friends who like me for me, and understand me. I want someone I can turn to in a difficult time and just talk to and vent.
Is it asking much? I already know I am never going to lower my standards for my friends. They aren't really set that high to begin with, I need people I can trust. And right now there aren't many I can say I trust nowadays.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
We weren't expecting her for another week but that morning at 6am, I had the urge to run to the bathroom and go pee. What pregnant women doesn't have to pee. Well it didn't feel normal like usual and I started to freak. My husband was getting dressed for work and was about to walk out the door and head off to work, and then I yelled "I think my water broke!". He told me to call my doctors office to see what they said. And sure enough they told me to go to Labor & Delivery.
When we got to the hospital, sure enough my water had broke, but wasn't feeling any contractions. I was given pitocin to speed up the contractions, and I didn't really feel anything. Around 11, Jocelyn left to go be with my parents. Once my husband got back from dropping our oldest off, I started feel the pain. I tried to hold off as much as possible.
Around 2pm I told the nurse I couldn't take the pain anymore. So it was time to get the epidural I was only 4cm along and was in so much pain. They came in to do my epidural, and it took at least 15 minutes, and the nurse forgot the pain medicine pump. I was sitting there with the epidural pretty much set up just was waiting on the medicine. By the time the nurse came back, I told her I was in ALOT of pain. She told me it was time to push! So in the 10 minutes from receieving my epidural, I dialated from 4cm to 10cm.
I started to push around 2:15...and several pushes later I was holding my 2nd baby girl! She was born at 2:26pm.
She is such a chacarter and we love her so very much.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
For years, people who were in my life (some not by choice) were extremely toxic and dragging those around them down into their miserable lives. They were making things uneasy for my husband and myself, and putting a wedge on our happiness.
I can't help that I am married to an amazing man, and you are left playing house with someone. I just can't help you get the things you want, I have my own life and family to look out for.
Well these passed few months, we have cut people out and I couldn't be happier. We don't have to listen to them say how they wish things were different and how they suck at life. Also trying to compare what me and my husband have to their own lives. How is that healthy?
To me there are two types of people in the world; Follwers and Leaders. I choose to be a leader of my own life, and not be stuck following people and being stuck in the dark. Some people choose that life, and that isn't for me. I choose to be the way I am, and really you can choose to accept me for me or just leave me alone. Its time to be blunt and weed out the fakers.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
My oldest has discovered the art of tattle telling on her little sister. Yes even if she touches something, Mommy she is touching this, she is doing that. It is driving me bonkers! In the car I hear "Mommy, she is taking off her shoes." Its utterly a huge annoyance
Now my middle child is going to be turning 2 in two days. "Terrible Two's" is such an understatement for her. She is throwing fits, refusing to listen, beating up my 5 yo. Basically driving me up the wall. I feel like she is turning 25 instead of 2. My oldest never went through the "terrible two's" so this is so NEW to me.
Between the two of them, I should be completely drain!
So right now I think I shall scream, it will make me feel better!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! okay good now!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
I wanted to wish all the moms I know, a VERY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
How did I get to where I am today thou? It all started in high school, I met this cute guy, and we fell deeply in love. Well after graduation a few months later guy and girl had their first daughter.
I traded my life of going out with friends for watching Dora the Explorer. I never had the real after high school life. While my friends were out partying at the clubs, I was at home partying with my daughter and fiance. While my friends were out getting drunk, I was at home cleaning sippy cups. But I've noticed that all that stuff Imissed out in, I would never want to do anyways.
A couple years later, me and my hubby decided we wanted to expand, and soon later we had our second child. Alot of my friends were graduating from college, I was graduating my oldest out of diapers. Also I was a working mom. Working 40 hours a week to help my family strive and grow.
And later at our surprise, I was carrying another lil one. And 9 months later, we welcomed the first boy to the bunch. Today I am a mom to a school age child, a toddler, and an infant. Can we say I have my hands full?!?
Now that may not seem like much to some, it means the world to me. Some are still trying to find themselves, I have found the man of my dreams and have the family I have wished for since I thought about having kids.
I love my life, and my family...so again HAPPY Mother's Day!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
She is so smart for her age, it scares me sometimes. She doesn't realize her birthday is next week but I have to say I am excited. Her birthday party is next weekend, and I know that will be super fun. We are surrounding ourselves with friends!
I think we are going with a Spongebob theme, but not too sure yet.
The next thing you know Anthony is going to be a year old!
Friday, April 29, 2011
I am tired! He misses bedtime, the girls won't stop asking when daddy will come home. It hurts me inside. When my husband went out of town for 2 days, my oldest asked me if daddy was ever coming back home. I mean what can you do.
I feel like the walls around me are crumbling and I'm getting caught by the rubble. But I stay strong for my family. I mask my emotions and lock them deep inside. I can't have my children see me as a mess., even though I just want to cry!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
I'm trying to not get to that point but I feel more and more frustrated then anything.
And the best way for me to get over things is just to sit and cut off the world in a sense.
Granted I have better days then bad, but the bad days seem so harsh. I really do miss having that close friend to understand me, and knows how I truly feel.
But I have to say today was a good day, yesterday was a bad day but I have moved on, and trying to keep this smile on my face.
Friday, April 22, 2011
In a week span, I've given the most time outs, pulling the girls off each other to stop fighting, saying the weird NO, heard tons more crying. And my girls are only 5 years old and almost 2 years old.
Now can I say I'm not looking forward to summer vacation! :)
My girls are physically draining, and then on top of that my son, has been cranky pants this week as well. I think he is cutting another tooth in, which means not great sleep for mommy. All I want to do is curl up in bed with my husband and sleep!
Monday can't come fast enough!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
On the upside, Jocelyn is being recognized as "Student of the Month" for her kindergarten class next week!
We are so proud of her, she has changed in so many positive ways since school has started. She is a much confident child. She is excited to get up in the morning and get ready for school. I know this will only last for so long (before she ends up hating school LOL) but I am enjoying the whole experience. I don't want my babies to grow up anymore!
So right now my gloomy day is okay just talking about my kids makes me feel so much better!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
So I have been a stay at home mom for almost 2 years now. And I totally appreciate what my husband does everyday. He goes to work, works his tail off, even at the cost of not spending the most time with the children. Some nights he gets off right at their bedtimes,and he is gone to work in the morning before they wake up. He has had to work weekends. Not to long ago he worked almost 20 days in a row without a day off!
I know it bothers him that he doesn't get the time with the kids, but I know the kids understand that daddy is working his butt off for them everyday. I may not get to spend that much time with him either and I complain about it a lot, but in the end he is doing what he can for our family. He is just a wonderful man. And I couldn't be more proud of him!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
So here is a picture of my husband holding our first born. As I have said before we found out we were going to be parents while we were in high school. Well our first daughter was born a few months after I graduated High school.
I have to say I have never seen a man so excited about being a father! My water broke at 11:30pm and he just got off work that night at around 7 pm..after working 10+ hours. I had to wake him out of a dead sleep. This being our first child, I was super nervous. He seem to be calm about it all. He was my distraction during my epidural, he help me relax and got me to sleep for 3 hours before delivering. Once it was time for the moment to push and welcome our daughter, he was my coach.
The best moment for me was when after pushing for only 15 minutes, he cried with excitement to see his daughter.
He has done such a great job as a father, and couldn't ask for anything more!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Friday, March 4, 2011
My household is finally getting over being sick and laundry hasn't been on the top of my list of things. So today I did about 5 loads of laundry :( I felt so overwhelmed by the amount of clothes, towels, etc.
I seriously thought I was being buried alive in clothes. Why haven't the famous laundry fairies not come to my aid?
Doing so many loads in 1 day and having to fold made me realize my children have way too many clothes! Especially my son (who is almost 6 months old). What happened to me and my husband's clothes. I swear it seems like sweats and tshirts is our outfits of choice.
At least I know I wont have to wash laundry for a couple of days. :)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Obviously I meet that requirement
1.being i live in the Hampton Roads Area
2. being how I am a Mommy
Anyways..I joined HRM in January 2010. Wasn't too sure how it would be and me being a shy person, I didnt think I would do much on the site with doing playdates and such. Well I think the turn for me was when the Virginia Beach group needed a moderator. I applied, and of course the admin gave me a chance. It forced me to get out of my shell and start meeting people. And I have to say I've met some amazing women.
This group really helped me in a time of need, when I had just delivered Anthony. I was provided dinner for a whole week by some of the members. To not have to think about cooking for a week meant the world to me.
After my time as moderator, I decided to go on and become a manager. In October 2010, I was given the chance to be HRM's first UGM (UGM=User Group Manager). And let me tell you, I loved that position. It was a true fit for me. And I believe I did a great job as UGM. Well at least hope.
And now I have been named Assistant Chapter Manager. I was on the fence about this position, I didnt know if I was good enough for the position. But of course I had some of my dear friends speak to me and tell me how they trusted me in this new position. And I applied. Having people tell me that they trust, and are confident in me and my abilities, really touched me.
Basically, I'm saying HRM has saved me in a way from being a complete loner. And I have made some great friends!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
I'm have been stick inside the house for over a week and I think it is time to get outside. What do you think?
Well I've noticed lately that my friendships are transitioning. I'm not really friends much with my old crew :( but I have made tons of new friends on HamptonRoadsMommies. Which I need, since I finally have people who understand me and understand what I am going through. Phew..it only took forever!
I can't believe my wedding anniversary is going to be here in like 2 weeks. I love my husband.
Another off subject rant: I HATE THE WEATHER! One day it is 70 degrees and the next day barely 40!?! What is going on here? I'm so over this weather and ready for some stability with it. So it better come soon!!!
Friday, February 18, 2011
In the time of my last post tons of things has happened:
1. I became a SAHM (stay-at-home mom)
2.We moved outta Norfolk
3. I had another baby-my first son
4. My oldest started Kindergarten
and other things but not worth mentioning.
Life has been quite an adventure. But I love my life. I have a husband who loves me dearly and 3 kids who I love so much!
We are hoping 2011 is a better year then last.